Boudoir Photoshoot- Learn to Love Yourself!

Hey my lovely readers,

I hope everyone has had a great weekend. So, today I am writing a blog about a recent boudoir photoshoot I had done and the reason behind choosing to do this specific one.

Although I am actress, I have always had an interest in modelling, when I was younger I was in a child modelling agency and booked a few different shoots. I loved it and felt so free and proud, however, as I grew older I became less and less confident with my body. I have always been short and and this was something that really made me uncomfortable. I would always get people making comments on this and although they weren't usually said to be in a negative way, it still just make me shy away more. I felt different to a lot of girls and when I would read fashion magazines such as Vogue I felt very jealous by all the models, who were tall, skinny and seemed to have perfect curves all in the right places. I always wished that I could look like that and it upset me that I would never be able to. I'm sure I am not the only person that has felt like that. Even into my early twenties I was self conscious of my body and considered plastic surgery to make my boobs bigger or my butt smaller, I couldn't do anything about my height other than wear heels.

I had seen so many boudoir shoots online and I had always wanted to do it but I just didn't feel confident enough to have pictures in my underwear. Since being in LA my confidence has grown a lot. My life has changed so much and the experiences I have had since being here, whether they were good or bad ones have allowed me to really grow as a person and accept things for what they are. I have realised that either you can shy away from the world and not allow yourself to live the way you want you can think positive and grab every opportunity you get and not look back. That is exactly what I have decided to do since moving to LA. I want to do what makes me happy, that being acting, modelling, writing and anything else. I have finally accepted myself and my body for what it is and I am proud to not be perfect, I am happy just being me. I wanted to prove to myself that I could show off my confidence and get my boudoir shoot and I am so happy with all my pictures. I am not saying that you should do a photoshoot to prove anything, it is just something that I had wanted to do for a long time and felt that I should be afraid to do it anymore.

Another reason that I chose to do this shoot is that there is a lot of controversy around boudoir shoots, a few family members though that it was inappropriate way of expressing myself, however, I completely disagree. I am constantly seeing photos of celebrities in lingerie, I go to the beach and see people in tiny bikinis and even when you go into a store to buy underwear there is always models wearing the lingerie, so why is this any different to that. As women we are always being told that this is inappropriate and that because we are 'women' we should do this and that. I never see men being slated by the millions of Instagram photos that they have with them flexing their muscles in tiny little shorts, so why should it be a different rule for a woman.

When I finally decided to so this shoot I knew I was looking for something tasteful and classy and was not looking for some overly photoshopped photos either. After searching for a while I came across Cristen Geller. I absolutely loved her photos and decided to book a session with her. When I got to her studio, we discussed exactly what I was looking for and how we would achieve it. She made me feel so comfortable and knew exactly what she was doing. She encouraged me to try out different poses and made me feel at ease through the whole process. I would a 100 percent recommend her to anyone wanting to have the same type of shoot, she is fantastic. Check out her website for more details Christen Geller Photography