This last week has been a bit of a roller coaster for me. Sitting in a little coffee shop in the Grove waiting for an appointment at the Apple Store is the first time I have really had a chance to reflect of my first week at AADA. On Wednesday I finally moved into my apartment, which was probably the most stressful day of all. I got the school housing orientation with CHS regarding my appointment and with no explanation I was told by the advisor of CHS that I was being moved to a totally different apartment. When I asked the reason he responded with "because I said". He seemed completely unapologetic and responded with rude abrupt answers when I enquired about things to do with the new accommodation. I was already feeling overwhelmed and anxious by the fact that in only a few hours I would be left in LA by myself and he had no interest in making the experience positive for me. I went to my apartment that day feeling quite stressed and upset. I was hoping that I would feel better after meeting my roommates but instead I just felt worse. My roommates were lovely but I felt a little lost like I was unsure on what to do next.
I think the issue I faced is I didn't anticipate me feeling like this and it hit me when I was finally on my own. I had to go to registration at 9.30 the next day and I just felt so uncomfortable. Looking in the studio room, I saw everyone in their little cliques and everyone looked like they had just come out of high school. It made me feel so old and out of place. I went home that night, wishing I could be at home on my own bed with my parents annoying me like they normally do.
I realised I had two options, I could spend the next year feeling sorry for myself and wasting my mum's money or I could relax and go to orientation the next day with a positive attitude. I woke up the next morning and decided to put on a smile and throw away all the negative feelings I was having. I knew that is what I wanted but my anxiety just got in the way of it all.
I headed off to our social at AADA with my two roommates and met a load of fantastic and diverse bunch of people. I could clearly see lots of people from all walks of life, different cultures, countries and ages. After mingling for a while we finally went into orientation. It was amazing to hear how supportive everyone at the academy is and it instantly made me feel comfortable and excited to be apart of this amazing journey. The last few days have been so positive and I have seen what LA has to offer and I'm so excited about it.
The final part of my week at AADA included an assessment where we were asked to do a monologue, song and movement piece. It was amazing big experience and although I was a little nervous I also felt so happy and confident. I remembered that this is what I am here for and I have to try not to forget that. Emotions will always get in the way, but I've realised the past two days that being positive about what I'm in LA for will make all the difference. eek of AAD
This last week has been a bit of a roller coaster for me. Sitting in a little coffee shop in the Grove waiting for an appointment at the Apple Store is the first time I have really had a chance to reflect of my first week at AADA. On Wednesday I finally moved into my apartment, which was probably the most stressful day of all. I got the school housing orientation with CHS regarding my appointment and with no explanation I was told by the advisor of CHS that I was bring moved apartment. When I asked the reason he responded with 'because I said'. He seemed completely unapologetic and responded with rude abrupt answers when I enquired about things to do with the new accommodation. I was already feeling overwhelmed and anxious by the fact in only a hours I would be left in LA by myself and he had no interest in making the experience less worrying for me. I went to my apartment that day feeling quite stressed and upset. I was hoping that I would feel better after meeting my roommates but instead I just felt worse. My roommates were lovely but I felt a little lost like I was unsure on what to do next.
I think the issue I faced is I didn't anticipate me feeling like this and it hit me when I was finally on my own. I had to go to registration at 9.30 the next day and I just felt so uncomfortable. Looking in the studio room, I saw everyone in their little cliques and Everyone looked like they had just come out of high school. It made me feel so old and out of place. I went home that night, wishing I could be at home on my own bed with my parents annoying me like they normally do.
I realised I had two options, I could spend the next year feeling sorry for myself and wasting my mums money or I could suck it up and go to orientation the next day with a positive attitude. I woke up the next morning and decided to put on a smile throw away all the negative feelings I was having. I headed off to our social at AADA with my two roommates and met a load of fantastic and diverse bunch of people. I could clearly see lots of people from all walks of life, different cultures, countries and ages. After mingling for a while we finally went into orientation. It was amazing to hear how supportive everyone at the academy is and it instantly made me feel comfortable and excited to be apart of this amazing journey. The last two days have been so positive and I have seen what LA has to offer and I'm so excited about it.
The final part of my week at AADA included an assessment where we were asked to do a monologue, song and movement piece. It was an amazing experience and although I was a little nervous I also felt so happy. I remembered that this is what I am here for and I have to try not to forget that. Emotions will always get in the way, but I've realised the past two days that being positive about what I'm in LA for will make all the difference.
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